Wedding bells and Hell
I have a guilty pleaser that I almost hate to admit but will anyway because it has to do with my post.
I like wedding shows.
Yeah.
I mean I don’t Tivo every wedding show on cable. I’m not that bad but I do like watching “Say yes to the dress” and “Battle of the wedding designers” on TLC.
They are very entertaining and plus I like seeing people have a happy ending. The reason I bring this topic up is that my mother has had a lot of customers getting married.
Of course since I can find a job for the summer my mother has dragged me along so I could help her out with work. (which I have no clue why, she just leaves me in the car or near the buffet when we get there anyway.)
But this time my mother was friends with the bride’s mother and we were invited to her first born’s after party wedding. We met the family and friends and then that’s when my mother seem to look at me differently. Like she just noticed that she has a almost twenty year old daughter, marriage must come in only a couple of years. Despite the fact that I have told her repeatedly that I don’t want kids and that it would be a rarity for me to get married.
My mother then goes on a tangent about how one day I will find a man just for me, and that we shall give her lots of grand babies .
Uggg.
Besides the whole marrying a dude thing, I actually I would love to get married to the girl of my dreams, if it was legal.
But I’m not really to tell my mom “Hey mom I would love to get married but inted of a male groom I will have a woman there! Isn’t that just great?!”
Uh no.
I hate pretending I have no romantic interest in anyone just to hide the fact that I’m gay from them. I hate it but on the other hand I don’t want to risk my parents kicking me out when I’m halfway through college and no mean to support myself just in case.
But hopefully I won’t have to worry about any of these things soon…hopefully.
So will you tell them once you’re out of school or if you find a means to support yourself without needing their help?
When I’m out of school and supporting myself.I just hope I’m worrying over nothing….
Oh honey.
Coming out to family can be tough. Choosing the timing can be even tougher. The important thing to remember is that only you can live your life. You have to do what seems best to get you where you need to be. If that means not risking big announcements until you are through with school, then so be it.
All that being true, I think you underestimate yourself. So if you find that you just really need to go public with Mom and Dad, I have every faith that you will also find a way to survive the potential ramifications and get done what needs doing, too.
Thanks for having more faith in me than I do myself. Maybe I’m just over worrying because sometimes I think they already know about me being gay…
Yes you’ll work it out, give yourself time to think
Thanks:)
I think you have a great blog! I, too, went to a women’s college, Smith in Massachusetts. Im sitting here trying to guess which one you go to…is it Bennett??
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Nope! But thanks for complement!
Or you can just give your mother a heart attack and tell her you’re getting married and/or pregnant at 20.
Speaking from experience, that will shut her up for a few years.
Wait your alive!! How nice! How is that waltz coming along by the way?
Anyway…If I try that,someone will die mysteriously and no one will find the body…
So that’s a no go…I’ll just wait it out..
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